So like I said yesterday I'm gonna be doing this 30 day list thingy that one of my friends from back home used. Should be neat to see write down things about myself and other things :-)
Without further ado
Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Well as of today I've been single for X-number of months, broke up in the fall sometime so yea you get the picture. Therefore being single, now time to discuss!
Being single now has been a different experience for me then before. I mean with all things you don't realize what you had or missed until you come back to that certain place. That being said its been good to going back and being single, yes there are things I miss like the companionship, reliability, etc etc. However you also regain things like time and those things I miss regained through other friends and even more so the Lord. On that note thats probably the biggest shift for me in the past several months. My focus on the Lord, though not as concentrated as it should be, is now veering towards the better concentration. Now that being said I am not putting blame on my ex for my lack of concentration. The fault lies in me, I chose to disregard that focus with other things than what I should have and thus my spiritual walk suffered. That I see can be one of the greatest downfalls of dating, when the time needed to be with God is unfortunately downplayed.
On a different note, for some odd reason my whole self since the fall has been much more relaxed. Don't ask me why but I've come to enjoy the small things more. Happiness is no longer found in my significant other, but through the little joys of life. It's been more peaceful really in that I can now just seclude myself from the world when I need to and just hole up with a book, music, cup of tea, or whatever. The commitment factor no longer being an issue. Not saying that the commitment was an issue, that is what makes a relationship work. But there are times when one just wants to be alone, and when dating you tend to be just a tad bit linked to your partner.
To wrap up, I've come to realize that being single isn't all half bad. Not saying though that single life is where its at, because it's definitely not what the Almighty has planned for any of us. However one should appreciate this "loner" status while it lasts, there is someone out there for everyone.
So those are my thoughts. Just a bit longer than yesterday's post... :-)
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