Forgive this post, but this is gonna be just a bit of a ramble and a dumping ground for some things that are swimming in my head....
Time since graduation last May is coming up to close to a year now. The question of me having a job was obviously settled when I was hired in August and so I've been working since then for roughly seven months now. To say that I've been doing well is a good conclusion. I'm at home saving money, I'm currently employed with a "real" job and my side coaching gig, and I'm in good health (no broken bones or anything close to it). Yet for me, I'm starting to 1) feel a bit worn out, 2) feel a bit cooped up, 3) contemplate certain job areas that most likely aren't feasible, and 4) see that yes I'm no longer who I was 4 or 5 years ago, but am still yearning to change into an even better child of God.
Life isn't really rough for me, and I can see that perhaps that because of the "spoiled" lifestyle I have this sounds like me just whining about this middle class life. But frankly I'm just not a fan of complacency. I seem to still have those grand illusions of grandeur, call me naive, but hey I still have them. Grandeur not in a luxurious lifestyle; rather living life to the fullest and exploring each new and open possibility.
Selfish? Maybe just a little. Curious? For fricken yes!
Who doesn't want to go explore different countries, pursue a deep down passion, or follow the road less traveled (or the one that hasn't even been touched yet).
As I answer when anyone answers about how life after college is going, I always state how "real" life sucks. I mean I haven't fully gone out and lived by myself yet, but the day-in and day-out schedule of work and being tied down to one place (and I have nothing against my hometown whatsoever I promise) seems to be getting the best of me. Guess that's the adventurer in me itching to get out...
Yet thankfully because of this current situation, my mind is swarming with possibilities ranging from totally insane but somewhat possible to slight modifications to my current lifestyle to downright dangerous endeavors. A lot of people would say that I am indeed crazy and my friends would concur that I do have my moments where lack of though is truly evident. But something I've learned in the past few years is to take those chances and see where they take you. God tends to enlighten you via the Holy Spirit if something is an absolutely horrendous idea (though it may take a bit longer than He anticipates for you to realize), and He will protect you in a life threatening situation so long as you haven't provoked the wrath of the Almighty for some odd blasphemous reason. Treading on that path, there comes the question if whatever you embark on is blessed by the Lord. Here's my take on it. If you are doing something that you truly love and it revolves around a gift that you've been blessed with by the Lord, I'm pretty sure there isn't anything wrong with it (now remember to take that with a grain of salt, there are also other underlying circumstances that would warrant you to not embark on grand adventures). Moreover if what you are doing is bringing glory to the Kingdom and you wholeheartedly give all credit to God, then I say go for it.
But being wary and timid, tends to stop those dreams. Am I not right? I mean here I am writing this post, wanting to do certain things, but thinking of all the possible predicaments that could arise do me no good in being confident to make those dreams, reality.
Now to top it all off, lets say all provisions, opportunities, and the biggest go ahead from the Lord is handed to me. I'm not entirely sure I'd want to go out and do it all by my lonesome. Sure the first few weeks would be great, but experiences are meant to be shared. The inner sap in me would want a friend to share the occasion with and the saying "two heads are better than one" rings true for when you're out and about doing who knows what.
All in all, I want a richer experience in this life. I don't want to waste time doing boring menial tasks. I want to be able to free run, explore New Zealand/Australia, sky dive, re-visit Greece and Italy, cycle across the country, open a restaurant, start a revolutionary business, road trip as far as a car can take me, rope swing through a massive canyon, zipline farther than two football fields, live in the woods/mountains for a period of time, live in a temple of monks and learn ancient martial arts, grow closer to my Savior and truly depend on Him for everything, go spelunking, rappel down buildings (and mountains), climb building (and mountains), and the list could go on.
I don't know if I'll ever be able to achieve even half that list above. But I do hope that I can live each day thinking that each of those opportunities are not impossible.
So like I mentioned at the start of this post, the brain dump of sorts has occurred. If you're intrigued at all and want to hear more feel free to contact me. And there you have my meandering thoughts....
