Perhaps you've listened to this song once or twice before, and if you're around my age (recent college grad) you better know who this band even is. However that is all besides the point. Quite recently one of my friends posted on her blog a piece as she put it "releasing some yucky". Guess that in turn, it made me feel that some written release of my summer was warranted.
I guess to be put honestly since May, my world has been turned upside down, flipped over, and then put back into place. It is by no means a life-altering or drastic turn of events; rather more of the grand entrance of myself into the "real world."
To start this little shindig of a summer was my graduation from the esteemed establishment, Grove City College. Talk about 4 years in a whirlwind, friends who I wish to not lose contact with, and endearing memories that I'll hopefully cherish and not forget. From there in under a week, I was on route to beautiful San Diego to visit my girlfriend for two weeks. To say that I had a blast out there would be an understatement. Southern Cali is gorgeous and I wouldn't mind whatsoever to live out there and the people I met were all extremely wonderful. Thus goodbye was oh so bittersweet. I mean the next probable time of seeing my girlfriend was gonna be in six months!
Fast forward two months, my girlfriend calls me and gives me the news that no one ever wants to hear. Back to the single world.
Happy? Not so much.
Wanting closure/an explanation. It wasn't given.
Emotions running rampant inside. Kept them from going anywhere.
Then of course the irony of it all hits. That same week I'm called and scheduled for a job interview and voila the Lord provides me with an engineering position. I joke and all, but to be honest I feel that God during that week was laughing at the humor and irony ringing in my life. From the news that put me in an emotional hole to the light of having a job out of college and now a source of income. Then to put it even farther within the next two weeks, I'm offered a coaching position for the swim club I grew up in for an actual group. No not a position that I'd be assisting another coach with his or her group that I thought I'd be doing, but a whole group instead!
Questions are everywhere in my head.
Why like this Lord?
What are you planning, Father?
What do I do now, God?
Well to be honest I still don't know what to do, but thats life. Figuring that out is the fun of it all. But you know the one thing I've come to realize. I vow (as much as I can) to stay in contact with the people who shaped me and I made memories with. That my relationship with the Lord must progress and become strong(er) for me to begin even thinking of dating again. Lastly, to let go is hard, but it's needed. So farewell to communication to her starts now.
Like I said, I don't know what to do, but I know the Lord will keep me ultimately safe and that whatever I go through is in His plan. Jeremiah 29:11.
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